Truth be told, I've had a pretty rough few months. Pretty much bad year actually.

Horrible stuff with my now ex. Getting pretty depressed and getting into a cycle of Uni, eat, computer, sleep.

I hadn't seen anyone until Friday came around and I finally went out with Uni mates. Met this great guy called Sam, we hung out and stuff, it was great.

Until friday late night struck. I find out that my ex (who I still have major feelings for and the way we broke up wasn't on bad terms and I'm not going to explain it because it makes my head hurt. Not enough punctuation there? Blow me! LOL) had just dumped his girlfriend (who I jokingly named 'Dumbo').

He rang me to tell me and my eyes just widened up. Seriously I just went all limp. Excuse me for sounding like a nut. Suddenly, my head just said to me "This is your chance! After 3 years!"

I told him I was feeling awful and he wanted to just talk (because we're still friends). A friend told me to just tell him how I feel and to just go for it. So, I did. He said he still loves me and was distraught (when he came back from where he went) when he found out that I was seeing somebody else. He said that if he could he would've asked me to be his girlfriend again right there, but he didn't want me to be his "rebound" girl and wants to wait a month or two! HOW SWEET IS THAT?!

So, we talked it out and agreed on the fact that we must see eachother but not be seen at least for the next month and then see how we are! In my mind this is perfect. He's the most lovely guy that I've ever met and I'm so glad that he's still interested in me. I've gained a lot of weight since we were last going out and I'm not the prettiest doll in the store either.

I'm just so happy right now to have somebody that I can love and depend on that I know who loves me back!

So relieved to get that out and I'm SO excited for the weeks and months to come.

Lots and LOTS of the remaining love that I have to give... 'cause Aaron stole it all!