I have just seen monday night raw. OMG! I am so stoked CM is getting a chance to reclaim the gold, i was devestated after what happened at unforgiven, it was rude and totally unwarrented, randy orton had no right to do that just seconds before his match!

I haven't been watching wwe long but in the brief time that i have and all that i have managed to catch up on thanks to the amazing internet CM Punk has really stood out for me, he proves to all the non believers and the critics and all the haters who he is and what he can do! That he isnt just going to stand by and let them do what they like to him! He has done what so many other people find it hard to do. He stands up for all the 'outcasts' or 'losers' or whatever it is that they are calling us these days, he inspires me to carry on every day. Through his example i can find belief in myself when others put me down or swear at me in the street or throw things at me, i can find within myself the fight to continue each and everyday in this kind of society because he taught me how.

So i want to thank CM Punk for all that he does, for all the hard work he puts in, all the pain and injuries he takes because he is a champion and deserves to be treated and respected like one. He is someone i will thank for the rest of my life for helping me become who i am now, you may think it hard to change in only a few months, but its possible even for the most dramatic transformations because all you need is to believe.

So thank you CM, you rock and we will always love you and think of you as a champion with or without the gold. I wish you all the very best for monday, go kick some butt!!!!

hey guys and gals back again on the blog. so whats new that i can share with you all? hmmmm?

the first week back at college is nearly over and boy am i glad! the amount of times i have had to say "hi im nikki and i've got 7 allergies" it killing me! ice breakers suck i know that i have to spend a whole year in that class it doesnt mean that i need to know that persons whole life story! just there name will suffice! sorry about the rant but im stressed, its only day 4 and there is so much to do already, im wondering when exactly am i supposed to sleep between doing all the work i've been given?

im settling into my new courses well am and actually making new friends! go me! classics improves in time and phtography was fun from day one. i love english! i think im gonna do even better this year than i did last year, i am so pumped i have a good feeling :)

anyway i should probably explain why today's blog is called stew. well yesterday for the first time ever i ate stew for my dinner. it was disgusting. dont get me wrong i love veg and meat and gravy but all in a bowl at the same time where you cant see what anything is? not my idea of a good meal. and dumplings? what is up with dumplings? they are all slimy and stuff i cant get how people would want to eat that. so i didnt enjoy that experience at all.

anyway i'll blog again sometime soon til then au revoir!!!

as i sat in the silent area of the library at college today, i had a suspicious feeling of deja - vu. Being my first day back that's not good. At the end of last term i said to myself "next year is going to be different, you are going to be confident, you are going to be commited, you are going to speak to people, you can do this!" all fine goals to be sure - in theory. so why did i find myself hiding again as i had the previous two years of college? well let me tell you:

1) i was wearing a skirt, the less people who see me in in a skirt the better, for everyone!

2) i had a free lesson and no one to spend it with

3) i was avoiding bumping into a "friend" of mine, our friendship hangs in a delicate balance at the moment anything i say or do could result in extreme verbal abuse via text message and ultimately the end of said friendship            

and 4) i hadn't kept the promise i made to myself at the end of last year.

i had left the house feeling great, survived the bus journey, and arrived at the college gate to a court yard full of first years. Gulp. Suddenly i was a paranoid wreck , tugging at my skirt for fear that my underware was showing, clutching my oversized fashion statement handbag like my life depended on it and wondering "why in the world did i decide to wear the tattiest pair of shoes i own?!"

the first day back is always disarming, but as a third year it's supposed to be me inducing fear into the newbies not the other way around! truth is kids are getting cockier and b****er, the judgemental glances, snide remarks and general disdain for my apperance reduces my already zero self confidence and esteem way into the minus numbers.

so as i promised myself, tomorrow would see my great change, i felt mildly optimistic. after all im a third year i have the upper hand, the knowledge of how things work and tomorrow is tuesday. i like tuesdays. 

hey guys!

Hope everyone is well im feeling good at the moment really pumped for unforgiven in a few hours, over here in england it'll be one am when it starts (hence the name of my blog today) so im gonna be trying to stay awake to watch it, i am determind i will not miss it lol

well i had to work today, which was really kinda boring, i work as a kitchen assistant so i basically spend my whole day washing dishes, not good for my skin at all as it gets so dry. i wish i'd got a job in a store then i would at least have customers to talk to. anyway i spent my whole day thinking about unforgiven i am really that excited about it. im wondering what is going to happen with the undertaker and vickie guerrero's threats against each other, my mum came up with an idea that maybe edge will come back and try and save vickie to try get back in her good books, and if you think about it, it is possible. he hasn't been around for the past few shows... so who knows? i guess we will just have to wait and see.

i am really looking forward to the championship scrambles im not totally sure i like the idea of them, i think it's a little unfair but i suppose its kind of an interesting concept. of course i have favourites i want to win but whether they will or not considering all that has happened recently will be interesting to see.

its my first day back at college tomorrow as a third year, im kinda excited as im taking some new subjects, like ancient history and photography and im finishing my english a level which i really enjoy so i think its going to be a good year. plus my little sister will be joining me there as a first year, we get on quite well so it should be cool. im pumped about it im just hoping i don't fall asleep in class staying up late tonight lol

well im going to go now i'll speak to you all later hope you all enjoy unforgiven as much as im sure im going to enjoy it!

xoxo   

hey everyone

how are you all doing? hope everything is good with everyone, if not i hope it will be soon. :)

well, its mid afternoon here, im kinda bored so i thought i may aswell write a blog to let you all know whats happening and stuff. To be honest nothing is actually happening, just got back from seeing my grand parents who are well, fed my two goldfish - frank and gerard and then logged on to see what everyone else has been up to, so what have you all been doing? i'm pretty bored so would love someone to chat to.... ooh i just remembered i have to introduce you to some one......

this is my gorgeous willow .she is a netherland dwarf rabbit and she is the most precious thing to me i hope you all approve of her. any way feel free to message me if there is anyone out there who is half as bored as i am

hope you all have/ are having/ had a good day speak to you all later

nikki xoxo