Hey guys and gals! Hope you are all well, i am almost fully recovered from my most recent cold so am doing quite well at the moment.

So 23 days til christmas.....who's excited? Anybody? I'm not sure if i am yet. I probably will be when it gets to like christmas eve but till then i'm just going to be stressing about buying everyones christmas presents. Im trying not to spend too much on everyone as i have quite a few to buy for but its so hard to get something nice when you have a budget.

I love the atmosphere of christmas, all my family have always gone to my nan's house for christmas for as long as i can remember. We usually spend the morning at our own homes exchanging presents and stuff like that, have christmas dinner then go to my nan's house at about 2 in the afternoon where we all exchange more presents and my nan always makes a buffet tea. Its like a tradition in our family we all help set out all the food and we all pull crackers and stuff and we all have to wear the little hats you get in them for at leat 5 minutes for some photos its insane but i wouldn't want to spend my christmas any other way. We usually end up playing a random board game and you don't think it's going to be as much fun as it actually is.

That is what makes christmas for me. All the stupid little things, the details. And my family.

The only thing i am not looking forward to about christmas this year is having to spend the entire day with my older sister. Its pretty much a well known fact within our family now that me and her hate each other (im not even joking we really do hate each other) so its going to be interesting to see how the day pans out. I don't want to argue with her on christmas day but i can pretty much guarentee something will go down before the day is out between her and me. I am not looking forward to it one bit.

On a better note i hope all of you have amazing christmas' i know its still ages til the day but i had better say it now otherwise i will forget nearer the time.          

love to everyone xxx 

Hey guys and gals once again i find myself with nothing to do, so time for a little update. Been feeling a bit down recently so i wrote a poem in the hope that it might help me to get over some feelings i have at the moment. Hope you like it.

"Yes we can?"

Can we be friends?

5 years old, making amends

A child once said

Another quickly nodded her head.

"Yes we can".

Can we still hang out?

seperated for the first time, considering the "what abouts".

Now 11, at a new school,

reminded of our first friendship rule.

"Of course we can."

Only 14, this is going to be tough,

i know you've had enough.

Your crying eyes, inconsolable loss,

you feel angry and cross.

"Yes, we can get through this."

Sweet 16, and still standing together,

"Friends till the end. Forever."

College keeps us busy, but we'll never forget,

we'll keep on going with no regret.

"Yes we can."

I feel lost and alone without you,

18 an the arguements finally arrived, it was then i knew,

you wouldn't consider my point of view.

I tried and so did you, but the wedge just grew.

"No we can't."

Hey everyone, me again, yes i am back from my nan's house. I had a really good time, it was really relaxing, it was great to get away from everything and just chill. My nan wouldn't let me do anything either so that was a bonus. Ooh and she cooked me a roast, my favourite meal ever!!! Thought i'd just let you all know how it went and that i am back and now i have done i'll let you all get on with your days!!!

*hugs*

Hey guys and gals! How're you all doing? Hope you are all well, i'm doing good at the moment, a bit bogged down with college work but good. I just wanted to let you all know i'm going to be staying at my nan's house tomorrow night so i won't be online as she doesnt have a computer and i will be going straight from college so i am not carrying my laptop around all day! I'll be back on saturday so if i dont catch up with you today i'll catch up with you then!!!

Love you all loadz xxxx

Hey everybody. I thought it was about time i wrote again.

Well i should probably explain the title of this blog, if you read my last blog you might be able to see where this is headed, but i guess it is still kind of ambiguous. Basically i wanted to write this blog to thank all of my friends here on wwe.com for all the support they have given me whilst all the **** was going on, and the aftermath where i probably annoyed the hell out of you all being depressed. Particular thanks go to Jordan, bigpunk80, stonecold448 and Deanna. I love you guys you rock!

Things still arent that great for me but i am feeling so much more optimistic now than i was before. I still find it hard to deal with the fact that my closest friend doesnt want to know me any more and my sister wont speak to me, i cry about it sometimes when i hear songs that remind me of good times we had or that are particularly sensitive to the situation and when i look back at photo's, i wont deny that it hurts because it does. Like hell. But at least i know i had someone to share all those times with once and that even if she will never be in my life again she was a big part of making me who i am and i am greatful to her for that. I'll never forget growing up with her and all the randoms thing we did through out our friendship. I guess it was just time for us to move apart. You can't stop destiny right?

Anyway, i'm going to be okay, i can understand that even if i was only allowed 14 years they were the greatest 14 years of my life. It's time to move and and by god that it what i am going to do! I'm off to university next year, what an oppertunity that is going to be! I am so excited about it! I'm the first person in my family to go to uni so.....it's like the biggest adventure of my life! lol. Hopefully i might get to see some wwe live next year, that is going to be seriously exciting, i have one year to convince my mum to let me go, think i can do it? Also,not thinking about the near future but the present time sort of thing, im hopefully going to get my first tattoo soon!!!! Now that i am excited about, now i just have to decided which one to get out of the ton of designs i have n mind, im thinking the hardy logo or a butterfly or maybe something traditional like a swallow........message me or comment with idea's on what you think i should get.

Well, i think i have wasted quite enough of everyones time now.....i leave you all here with another promise to write soon!!!! love you all!!!!!!!!!! xoxo