Well a few things have been happening since i last wrote. I dont really want to go into detail about one of the things that have been hapening, its not been pretty and i dont like to think about more than i have to. But i will sumarise it by saying i just wasted 14 years of my life on a friendship that meant more to me than  it did the other person.

Moving on.... i had to work today, oh the joy, but it took my mind off of things for a while, washing dishes can be so theraputic. I'm looking for a new job at the moment but its turning out to be quite hopeless. I've even handed out c.v's to be kept on file for when there might happen to be a job opening one day. It sucks because whenever i get an interview that goes well they always call me or send a letter saying they aren't going to give me the job because i dont have enough experience. How am i going to get any experience if they dont give me the chance in the first place?! Its so annoying. Dont get me wrong my job is great  i get paid £5.80 an hour just for washing dishes, i usually do five and a half hours a day once a week. Its a pretty good job, it just gets boring sometimes. I've been working there since i was 16 it was my first and only job. Thats why i want to change, before its too late and no one will ever employ me.

You may or may not recall the blog in which i said i wasnt sure if i wanted to go to university yet, well i think i have made a decision finally. I think im going to go for it. I've been looking through prospectus' with my mum and there are some really amazing uni's around and its not just the course that interests me but the location of the uni's too. There is one an hour's bus ride from ny house! And it sounds pretty perfect as far as the course goes and the financal assistance it'd be the best choice for me. Im actually really pumped about it now :) There are a few others i like the look of too, so i'll have a back up plan if i dont get into the one i want to got to. Im pretty set on studying fahion/textiles but im not sure whether i want to do more of the designing or the making yet, but i think i still have plenty of time to decide that.

Well i had best go now i think i have gone on for long enough, i just want to say thank you to all of the people i talk to here you are really awesome people and you are all so nice to me thank you for everything guys :) loves ya x