so anyways i am supposed to be celebrating my birthday which is on this teusday, the twenty fifth but go figure, half of my friends ditched me and the other half cant come to the bar cause they just raised the age limit to twenty and over. but i am pissed cause i go to everyones party, i do things for them, i help them out but when it comes to me its like they dont even **** care. that is not a true friend. but i would love to thank my best friend matt who actually is willing to go to the bar for me cause its my birthday. i actually cried in front of him. it sucks not having any friends and it seems like everytime i turn around these people are accusing me of their problems. its not my fault u guys cant keep a relationship. i dont even want a bf right now cause i know that will just make me not do the stuff i want to do in life. i am so dedicated to family that i would drop everything to support my other. its just who i am i would rather see my friends happy then being selfish. so anyways enough about that but i am watching prison break cause my other best friend just bought me it for x mas cause she lives pretty far away and i am not sure we will see eachother for xmas so i am watching it and i am astonished by amaury nolasco. like he is orgasmic hahaha but don't get me wrong i still love john cena and jeff hardy but i can only watch them on wrestling and all and i get to watch this guy in movies and prison break. i dunno... he is just that damn sexy yum...!! but anyways i should get going. i just had to rant cause none of my friends are on here so i can freely express myself when i get pissed off and that is rare. but i am going to go hope in the shower and get ready to dance my ass off!!! lol