I want wish everyone a Happy New Year! I can't believe how fast the last year has flown by. I can truly say that I am grateful for all that I recieved in 2008, the good and the bad! I tried to remember what my new years resolution was last year, so I wouldn't make the same one...

but the truth is, I never make one single new years resolution. I try to make a little resolution everyday, really. Sometimes it will be to drink more water, recycle, start a new work out program, write old friends often, focus on the positive, take more risks, or not shop as much. Usually by about 3 pm each day, it gets off track at Macy's...but I always get right back on:) 

One thing I have really learned in the past year of "Divahood" in the WWE, and a resolution which I consider my motto, is to focus on consistency and not perfection. Nothing is ever achieved overnight. Not a diet, a lifestyle change, a relationship overhaul...nothing. It takes time and energy and effort each and every day to see small changes equal big results. (Unless you are 3-g like myself and overall perfect!)

I meet people all the time who ask me what it takes to make it to the WWE, or how they can become a Diva. I find that the answer they are looking for, is not one I am capable of giving. Most people don't really want the truth. (Don't ever tell a woman she looks fat even if she asks you to tell the truth!)

Accomplishing my goal of being a diva was not something I just woke up and was...it took me years and years of keeping my eye on the prize. Never giving up, either. Believing in something  that moved me everyday to wake up and want to fight...seeing a goal through till the end. Doing whatever it takes. 

While visiting my family in Calgary, Canada for the holidays, I fell upon an old photo album of pictures I hadn't seen in years. I had forgotten so much  of my past getting wrapped up in the momentum of my everyday life now. I looked back on going to the zoo with my dad and sisters, as a little girl and riding an elephant named Peggy, a go-cart party my mom and dad threw for my 12th birthday, my sister Jenni and I at our old junior high with way too much make up on, old memories where my family was so happy and united under the chandaliers in the Hart House for our weekly Sunday dinners. 

In these pictures, which were really little, individual stories of my life,  I saw the faces of friends and family that have come and gone...and I wish that they were still here today.  I hadn't forgotten about them, but tucked them away into my memory so I wouldn't be reminded of how hard it was to let them go. These people I have lost put things in perspective for me that our lives are more fragile than we know and to make each day count. 

While considering what my goals should be for 2009, I came to the conclusion that for me to really move forward, I had to revisit my past, too. I had to remind myself of how much I have achieved, and how exciting it is going to be to keep climbing the top. When I write my autobiography, I can't wait to say I defeated all the odds. The twists and turns will make for a great story of my life.

The best moments are right in front of us, right now. 2009 is the year of living for the moment and on the edge...coloring outside all the lines.