Man I'm pissed (not really pissed) because I gotta throw away all of my diaries. It kinda upsets me because you know how much ink I've used in the past few days, i mean years? Years!? Yep I love to write. It is the best thing to do when your don't exactly have anyone to talk to. There could be several reasons for this. I swear when I'm pissed I can go on and on and on on a negative note but then when something really good happens I don't know if I even mention it at all how funny is that? It is yes I know, thats why I said that.
I don't know if I'm happy or if I'm on a high because I took the time to read a very intresting journal from a special amazing person last night. I would link you to it but no because he's awesome and I'd like to keep him to myself. If you read it you would understand but guess what your not gonna. But let me talk about it further, if you don't mind. If you do then you are welcomed to exit this page at anytime.
This kid, now a wonderful man, seems to have everything! A gorgeous face, personality, nice buid, adorable smile, i could listen to him for days, oh and he has the best job on earth. So you think. But he doesn't seem to see that. So I read and read all he has to say i listen to him speak in a slightly raspy voice. Which is funny that I'm so amazed with him, because when I first laid eyes on him I hated him. I thought he obviously smoked, drank, probably partied every night, druggie, brawler, just a ****. But while I had no ideal why I continued to think about him even all those years ago I had no ideal that he was completly opposite of everything I thought. Amazing. He actually has had it really hard in life and it kinda makes me sad cause even though I don't personally know him I feel like I know him. And I feel like he isn't a bad person at all and he should not have had to deal with any of that. He's such a great guy I know he is and if hes not don't tell me. I love this fantasy world i'm in now. Its like I convinced myself there was nobody like that in this crazy world I tried hard, I made myself believe that he is not a good guy. I think he is but I think you have to dig way deeper than that before you convince him to let you see. Now this is all based on information I've gathered on him throughout the last what about 5 years? Yea i think. Its like amazing I've acidently had a run in with him a time or two, where all we did once was touch hands and the other i caught a gimpse of his eyes. It was like when you look into his eyes its like you know he's checking you out, not like oh your hot, more like who the hell are you, what do you want, and whats your purpose being here? Yea intense for a stare but its a stare like no other on earth. I just want to tell him he is like nobody else. You sir are why I can't settle for anything else, you sir are what got my standards so high, and you sir are why I'm single because if it wasn't for your ass I would not think there was anyone that great. So kudos to you sir.
Mr. Anti-Social was it? Yea I'll just call you that.
I have several goals for next year but 1 of them is to really sit down and talk to Mr. Anti-Social. Guys I'm telling you he himself is like an addiction. I'm never come across a guy like that before.
