Hey guys! It's that time again...time to put some random, but heartfelt thoughts, down on "paper!" I thought I'd go back to answering a few questions/responding to a few comments that popped out at me this week!

But...before that, I wanted to share a couple things that really made me laugh these past few weeks. It's been a crazy couple of weeks on live events to say the least.

Two weekends ago, we were working a live event show in Rochester (I think that's where we were....it's hard to keep track sometimes - forgive me) :). About 45 minutes before showtime, a main transmitter in the town went out. What's that mean? That means that we had no power WHATSOEVER! It was so dark, backstage that you literally couldn't see the person standing right next to you. All we had was a flashlight (to share among EVERYONE) that one of the cops was carrying.This may not seem like a big deal, but it made for an interesting afternoon. Here we are, not "TV ready" (as far as hair and makeup go) and nothing we could do about it. Personally, I thought it was hilarious. Fans like to see us "Au natural" every once in a while right?

BUT....not all the divas were too excited. It was me and Maria vs. Natalya and Maryse! You see, some take a little longer, work a little harder and put on a little more - and if they don't get the time/light they need.........well, you apparently pitch a fit in French !!! :) Yes, I'm talking about a certain someone.I laughed so hard at Maryse when she came out. She was so distraught she couldn't stand it!!! Maria and I just stood there chuckling for like a minute before the match while she tried to get herself together. I guess some are just alittle more high maintenance than others! :)  Thank goodness it was a 5:00 show. There was just enough natural sunlight shining into the arena that kept things going. We still had no music, but it was one of the most fun shows I've ever done for the simple reason of the obstacles we had to work around! :)

So....now to a few questions/comments a few of you have sent in. Let's see....let's start with the kind/positve ones first.

*All of the congrats you guys have sent - thank you, thank you, thank you! In my second singles ppv match and my first title defense, I came out on top! That was a great night. I'm not sure if you noticed or not, but I tweaked my knee a little bit on my backflip armdrag that I have done a billion times. To my surprise, Maryse ended up capitalizing on that and working my leg the entire match. She wore me down pretty good, but eventually fell victim at the end. To be honest, I really enjoyed the "fight" Maryse put up and was surprised at the  intensity of the match. I hope you all appreciated the effort on both ends, because believe me, (speaking for myself) I'm still feeling it.....that barrier I was thrown into definitely left some battle wounds! :)

*One of you commented and said "Ease up on the spray tan!": I'm sure it was meant to be hurtful, but it actually made me laugh. Look, I'm from Florida. I live 20 minutes from the beach and am outside every chance I get. I tan easily (thanks to both mom & dad for that one), so I'm sorry , but it's real. For the record, I hate tanning beds with a passion, and will only spray fake tanner when ABSOLUTELY necessary! :) Hope that answers your question! :)

*Personality/character: I had someone send me a message saying that I'm this, I'm that, I don't have this, I don't have that, I stink at this, I stink at that. Ok.......I get your point - you obviously don't like or respect me. To my defense, I wish you just knew me before you felt the need to act like you do! :) This will probably come out either ungrateful and mean or extremely passionate (I hope it's the latter b/c that's what it's supposed to be)! I love this business...always have and always will!!! I can only do what I am asked/told to do and I hope that whether you like a superstar or not, you can at least look past what you think you know about him or her and try to respect whatever it is they might be doing. There is a lot more to me than what you have seen on tv and hopefully, in the very near future, you will be able to see that even more. Alot of times, all of the divas are put into the same category as to how they look and/or act. I don't want that.

We aren't all the same, we don't dress the same, we don't have the same backgrounds, we don't look the same and we don't act the same. I myself find that refreshing! We don't always get the opportunity to show that on tv, so whenever we get a chance to simply be on tv (no matter what the capacity), we try to capitalize on that. It's just really funny to me....to do this job, it takes a lot of heart, a lot of athleticism, a lot of soul and a whole lot of strength (physical, mental and emotional). The people who are sending these comments obviously have nothing better to do and only see what they want to see (not just with me, with whoever they are sending them to and/or about).

The way I look at it is this...when people don't expect much from you, you always get the praise of how wonderful you did and how much you have grown. When people think you should be doing better, they don't look at how far you've come or what you may or may not be doing for the other person you are working with. It's pretty much a double edged sword and I LOVE IT! I know we can't please you all, but I hope we just continue to entertain you and earn a little bit of your respect. As I've said a million times, there are lots of hearts to win and barriers to break. It's you guys and your feedback that keep us going. So, thank you for that!

I've rambled enough for now.....my cousin called this morning. She just had a baby girl. Sooooooooo.....I'm off to the hospital to see the latest addition to the McCool clan :)

Faith to fight the good fight, heart to believe and soul to search within. Love you all.....MM