What's up all you stars and studs!?!  Now I would like everyone to join Team Mia Tweet!! marialkanellis is my twitter name!! Again everyone I am not a member of bebo! I am not a member of myspace!! I do have a facebook. But I am not a great updater. I am great at twitter!! It is easy and I am lazy!!

Now let's talk about something else..... Hmmmmm.... love first. It is came to my knowledge this relationship that I have, that was supposed to be something to pass the time has turned into the greatest love of my life.  I was hurt so bad after my last love I swore I would never love again. I wanted to go on nice dates, dinners, and be treated like a lady but not love. Just have fun. But, here I am almost 2 years and I am with my best friend." Not my type" has become my type.  Love is funny and his humor terrible, just when people have finally given up on it, love gives us the greatest kiss of our lives. When we are hard and happy being a zombie, to be alone,.....we fall, free fall right back in it.  Love is falling up and looking down knowing when you hit the ground it is going hurt. You just hope to suck in enough of loves delicious hilium to last forever.  My love gave me time to grow, to get better, and to heal. He held my hand through it all. The one after the one has become the only one I can see myself with.  My family loves him and I love his family. Weird, but I even just want my ex to be happy. There is a way of life, a path we follow that is best for us. We should not fight it, just swim with the fishes. I am a Pisces so I have always floated along but rocks have gotten in the way and storms interrupted my calm stream but now I am swimming alone and he is swimming in the stream next to me. Double O Ve and me have our own dreams but we are going in the same direction together.  I do not know if we will be able to make it across the hills, the mountains, the valleys, or that we will not get distracted by the  spiderweb, (love ya Victoria) of tributaries but at least it is honest and there is always a free flow of communication.  I am excited to know that we want to do it together. Sailing along in the blue skys of life never knowing where the next moody grey cloud will come from.  In our bubble nothing gets inside and we know the storm blows over.  A bond (our bubble) grows stronger when in love and that doesn't include jealousy, mystery, or fear. I think I am ready to finally love hard again, sooo scarey, but he deserves all of me.

No one should give up on love.  It's too good, too bitter sweet, open your hearts and everyone should love. Love even the ones you hate cause it only makes you stronger.  Then, no one can tear you down and tear you apart. Be a strong rushing river that erodes the harsh terrain of society. Irrigate the land with your love and happiness so that all around you peeps want to doggy paddle in your enlightenment.

Next, lets discuss what I am up to..... I am still on Smackdown!!! hahahaha... I am still here and my heart is still in wrestling. I want to be here. I want an opportunity to shine still in the ring. We don't always get what we want when we want it.  Sometimes timing is not right.  But, when it is I will embrace it!! I want to fight!! Maria Louise Kanellis.....Women's Champion!! mmmmmm.... sounds so good!! Someday, I have faith.

I am also working on a t-shirt line and I am working on my music.... I can't wait to sing for all the stars and studs!! I love writing music!!

Spank you for allllll the support!! The stars and studs are my heart you inspire me to keep pushing... love ya, Maria

Twitter me and let me know what you think. marialkanellis

Rock it: John Mayer: "Gravity" the live version

             Sugarland: "Stay"

             Pearl Jam: "Better Man"

             John Legend: "Ordinary People" You will fall in love again to this song.

What's up all you stars and studs!!!! I am not a person to respond to anger and cruelty but lately I have had such a hard time even getting on this site. Mind you I do not claim to be the greatest wrestler or the quickest learner. I work hard, I get in the ring, I try and still can't win all the time or even some of the time. Wrestling is hard. I love it and that is what keeps me going. I love what I do. Now, I do want to say spank you to everyone that supports me and everyone that understands what it is like to always be the underdog. You are my passion!!! Passion is my motivation!! if you want to be negative that is okay. I just can't read your comments cause negativity breeds negativity. I refuse to get down on myself. I could lose a million times and mess up a thousand things and as long as I love being out there I continue to march on.  That is what all people try to do. Continue on! Live breathe, love, and be happy! I grew up in a small town and always heard NO to all of my crazy big dreams. I continue to hear NO now and it does not scare me. It inspires me. Michelle can beat me, kick me when I am down, get in my face but I will survive. I will keep going as long as one little girl, boy, man, woman or even my dog still believes in me.  I have a great family and I fight for them. I continue to fight. Passion is my Motivation and no one can beat out my PASSION!! Spanks and Kisses, Maria Kanellis

ROCK IT:

"Imagine", John Lennon

"Change", Candelbox

"Still Dirty", Christina Aguilera

What's up all you stars and studs???

My blogs are called love notes because it is all about things I love ... So today we will talk about love. Can love come too early or too late? Can the perfect people meet at the wrong time? Do we have soul mates and do we have to marry our soul mates in order to feel complete? So I am asking for everyone that reads this to answer this question. Do we have soul mates? Put your answers in the comments please ...

People have a natural growing process and I believe that we date people sometimes just so they can teach us a certain lesson. Then they move along to their next place in someone else's life. We fall in and out of love so many times for different reasons. First, she or he is cute. Then, they make us laugh. She or he has a good job. We need a place to live. She or he is a good person, a saint, dangerous, sexy, inspire us, treat us like a prince/princess, treat us like gum on the bottom of their shoe and on and on ...

I hate love. I have that decided today because it is the only thing that makes me feel weak. I will love love again tomorrow. Today I have questions though ...Why can't we just love the one that loves us? Why can't we just trust?

What happen to good old fashion writing in a letter and courtship? Sometimes I wish I grew up in the 1700s to the early 1900s with arranged marriages, corsets, gentlemen, and love poems. It seems so much more glamorous and sexy and easy. Love and marriage meant something. Women were treated like ladies. Women took care of their men and men took care of the women. I am all about women's rights, but did we mess up the respect there once was for being the lady of the house?

I ask because upon reading books such as Little Women, Pride and Prejudice and seeing  Atonement, Deadwood, and numerous others I can't help but be jealous. I know those are movies and books, but I also have a book that is full of love letters from the civil war and they make me feel love. At that time period there is a mystique to the love story. It is so much more than your average I LOVE YOU. What does that mean? Does it mean, that I can't wait to feel the warmth of your skin when it presses against mine, melting my frozen soul because I missed you? Or, my heart stops aching when I look in your eyes because it has forgotten to beat while I am only mesmerized by your seas of green that flow directly into me? How about, I have nothing to say when I see you because my mind gets so filled up with emotions that I can only remember the word hi ... ha ha... I want a fairytale.            

Maybe that is too much to ask. I want that story that crosses countries and outlasts the tests of time. I want to be sitting across an older couple that has been together for years and years and you to turn to me and say, "I love you like they love each other." Maybe people still can have that type of love, but nowadays we just keep repeating the cycle love and lose. It is very interesting that I have nightmares about someone that is no longer mine and I still wake up crying and lost. I don't know how to let go. Maybe people never do. Maybe people are all starved for attention so much that even bad attention is good attention. We hang on to our lost love like trophies for what we have all been through. We want that great story, that bleeding heart, which makes us feel alive. My lost love trophy is punching my already beat up heart. Hahaha ... don't get me wrong though I am happy and free with a man that loves me. I just want answers for these things that still bother me.

One thing is for certain is that experiences help define us. We are the canvas of the thoughts and emotions that run through us. We become a masterpiece of wrinkles and laugh lines. We choose our paths everyday. We meet the fork in the road every morning and we use our instincts to lead us. For better or worse we are the owners of our destiny. Let your heart lead and your brain will follow. At least I hope so. ;)

SmackDown is getting more and more comfortable every week. I am finding new friends and building new relationships. I am challenged every week by amazing opponents. I hope that the fight in my heart shows as I try to get better. I was asked this week in a radio interview why I didn't ever sign with a talent agency. My answer was well, now I don't need one WWE is my home. But before WWE I was told I was too short and fat and I decided I didn't want an agency. No one should ever insult you and I don't want people like that around me.

Sometimes when I am feeling blue, not SmackDown blue, I think of that and smile knowing I’ve gotten to where my dreams lead me, not an agent. That fight is still in me. Divas Championship in my sights. I will fight until I get there. Whatever it takes, my dreams will take me there.

SmackDown Blue and Still True,
Spanks and Kisses,
Maria

Passion is my Motivation!!!!!

I AM ROCKING OUT WHILE WRITING THIS BLOG:
My life to live, Lars
I still miss you, Keith Anderson
Wake Up, Tim Armstrong
Fire, Augustana
So far, Buckcherry
Shattered, O.A.R.
Just to name a few.......

Gem says ARF ARF!!!!!