What's Up all you Stars and Studs!!

It has came to my attention that I haven't wrote a blog in forever. So, lets talk. I am so excited for this year to be the best one yet!! I am optimistic that you will all understand that I am not leaving WWE but I am going to be doing more and more. I have so much stuff in my brain that sometimes I need more outlets to get it out. I would love to have 6 lifetimes but unfortunately I have 1 lifetime and 1 million dreams. I have never been a person that can control their passion. Whether it be with love, work, or family. I want to make a difference and I will.

I wanted to be on Celebrity Apprentice so that I could give back. Make a Wish Foundation is the charity I supported. The children in Make a Wish Foundation are the strongest people I have ever met and my biggest inspiration. It was an amazing experience and I learned so much. I have a huge interest in music so in meeting Cyndi Lauper, Bret Michaels, and Sharon Osbourne I soaked up as much information as I could. That is not to say there weren't moments I wanted to dropkick some of the contestants or Mr. Trump. It was hard, very very very, hard. I missed the WWE while I was gone but I was working for a good cause. It is important for me to remember that I am able to live out my dream everyday and some of these children will not have that opportunity to get their dream. Make a Wish Foundation can give them that opportunity. 

Being back at WWE and seeing what Michelle and Layla are doing makes me sick. Mickie is a friend and she has been a leader in female wrestling and now all they can focus on is some phantom pounds. I mean really?? When in wrestling has it been a good idea to be stick thin? Strong? Sexy? Powerful? Sexy comes in all different forms and it isn't just the models of the world. I do love models, I used to be one, but that isn't the only definition of sexy. Come on, the average woman in America is a size 12. And women are getting married, getting rich, and getting f@#$%& just fine at that size. So, maybe there is more to being sexy than how many doughnut you did or didn't eat.  Sexy is being confident. It is obvious to me that Michelle and Layla walking around with there noses in the air just shows how insecure they are. Hmmm... insults usually mean you are jealous. So, maybe Scary and Skinny Spice are just unhappy in their own skin. 

Strong? Well if you think of who the strongest women are on the Diva Line-up. Beth, Mickie James, Natalya, Alicia Fox, and Eve Torres. They may not be tiny but I think everyone would agree they can kick butt in the ring and are still sexy. Strength wins matches and prevents injury. We all want that. 

Powerful? The power in the Diva's Locker room is the fact that no one is the same. Every single woman is different and has different desires. The story of our histories is amazing and the places we came from make us unique. Power comes from taking past experiences to make a brighter future and to help others learn from your mistakes. I am FLAWED and Team Laycool say they are simply flawless but I think they are small minded. Just because they have each other doesn't mean it is enough. Divas are supposed to be role models but Team WeThinkWeAreCool are just wanna be mean girls. 

I hope that Mickie takes the Championship from Michelle on sunday to teach her a lesson. Then, team Laycool can be TEAM LayDownLosers so Mickie can pin you. Mickie for WOMAN's Champion cause she is a real woman!!

Next,

My ALBUM!! Ahhhh.... one of my dreams is finally coming true!! I have been a writer my entire life. I love to express myself in words. Now, my words are combined with music and I am excited. The single to my first partial album is called, "Fantasy." It is a song I wrote when I was having a hard time. I wanted to be some boy's fantasy but he didn't care. I wanted my life with him but he wanted nothing to do with me. Something I think happens a lot to men and women. The album is called, "Sevin Sins." It is available on ITUNES on April 13. 13 has been a twisted lucky number for me. There are 4 original songs written by me, 2 music videos, and a free original photo booklet. My album is Rock music, Twisted lyrics, and Sex appeal. I will be coming out with "Fantasy" in February. I hope you all support me in my dream. I can't wait to share my thoughts through music with you.

Love, lately I feel very happy in love. I feel blessed to have a man that is my biggest supporter. Sometimes you have to learn to let go of the past. Let yourself be happy. Through all my mood swings and my slight bouts with insanity he loves me. I give thanks to my family, friends, and double O VE VE. And as always, thank you to the WWE Universe!!

Spanks and Kisses, Maria

Follow me on Twitter, marialkanellis, is my twitter name.

What's up all you stars and studs!?!  Now I would like everyone to join Team Mia Tweet!! marialkanellis is my twitter name!! Again everyone I am not a member of bebo! I am not a member of myspace!! I do have a facebook. But I am not a great updater. I am great at twitter!! It is easy and I am lazy!!

Now let's talk about something else..... Hmmmmm.... love first. It is came to my knowledge this relationship that I have, that was supposed to be something to pass the time has turned into the greatest love of my life.  I was hurt so bad after my last love I swore I would never love again. I wanted to go on nice dates, dinners, and be treated like a lady but not love. Just have fun. But, here I am almost 2 years and I am with my best friend." Not my type" has become my type.  Love is funny and his humor terrible, just when people have finally given up on it, love gives us the greatest kiss of our lives. When we are hard and happy being a zombie, to be alone,.....we fall, free fall right back in it.  Love is falling up and looking down knowing when you hit the ground it is going hurt. You just hope to suck in enough of loves delicious hilium to last forever.  My love gave me time to grow, to get better, and to heal. He held my hand through it all. The one after the one has become the only one I can see myself with.  My family loves him and I love his family. Weird, but I even just want my ex to be happy. There is a way of life, a path we follow that is best for us. We should not fight it, just swim with the fishes. I am a Pisces so I have always floated along but rocks have gotten in the way and storms interrupted my calm stream but now I am swimming alone and he is swimming in the stream next to me. Double O Ve and me have our own dreams but we are going in the same direction together.  I do not know if we will be able to make it across the hills, the mountains, the valleys, or that we will not get distracted by the  spiderweb, (love ya Victoria) of tributaries but at least it is honest and there is always a free flow of communication.  I am excited to know that we want to do it together. Sailing along in the blue skys of life never knowing where the next moody grey cloud will come from.  In our bubble nothing gets inside and we know the storm blows over.  A bond (our bubble) grows stronger when in love and that doesn't include jealousy, mystery, or fear. I think I am ready to finally love hard again, sooo scarey, but he deserves all of me.

No one should give up on love.  It's too good, too bitter sweet, open your hearts and everyone should love. Love even the ones you hate cause it only makes you stronger.  Then, no one can tear you down and tear you apart. Be a strong rushing river that erodes the harsh terrain of society. Irrigate the land with your love and happiness so that all around you peeps want to doggy paddle in your enlightenment.

Next, lets discuss what I am up to..... I am still on Smackdown!!! hahahaha... I am still here and my heart is still in wrestling. I want to be here. I want an opportunity to shine still in the ring. We don't always get what we want when we want it.  Sometimes timing is not right.  But, when it is I will embrace it!! I want to fight!! Maria Louise Kanellis.....Women's Champion!! mmmmmm.... sounds so good!! Someday, I have faith.

I am also working on a t-shirt line and I am working on my music.... I can't wait to sing for all the stars and studs!! I love writing music!!

Spank you for allllll the support!! The stars and studs are my heart you inspire me to keep pushing... love ya, Maria

Twitter me and let me know what you think. marialkanellis

Rock it: John Mayer: "Gravity" the live version

             Sugarland: "Stay"

             Pearl Jam: "Better Man"

             John Legend: "Ordinary People" You will fall in love again to this song.

What's up all you stars and studs!!!! I am not a person to respond to anger and cruelty but lately I have had such a hard time even getting on this site. Mind you I do not claim to be the greatest wrestler or the quickest learner. I work hard, I get in the ring, I try and still can't win all the time or even some of the time. Wrestling is hard. I love it and that is what keeps me going. I love what I do. Now, I do want to say spank you to everyone that supports me and everyone that understands what it is like to always be the underdog. You are my passion!!! Passion is my motivation!! if you want to be negative that is okay. I just can't read your comments cause negativity breeds negativity. I refuse to get down on myself. I could lose a million times and mess up a thousand things and as long as I love being out there I continue to march on.  That is what all people try to do. Continue on! Live breathe, love, and be happy! I grew up in a small town and always heard NO to all of my crazy big dreams. I continue to hear NO now and it does not scare me. It inspires me. Michelle can beat me, kick me when I am down, get in my face but I will survive. I will keep going as long as one little girl, boy, man, woman or even my dog still believes in me.  I have a great family and I fight for them. I continue to fight. Passion is my Motivation and no one can beat out my PASSION!! Spanks and Kisses, Maria Kanellis

ROCK IT:

"Imagine", John Lennon

"Change", Candelbox

"Still Dirty", Christina Aguilera