Relentless And Unwavering

You ask this girl why she loves You...

You ask her, why You...

It's because at all times she knows

where she fits in Your world.

There is no guessing, there is no

mind changing.

There is no here today and gone

tomorrow.

No wanting me one day and

throwing me away over and over

again.

It is constant and never changing.

She knows that when You talk

with her, You always tell the truth,

no beating around the bush.

When she feels weak, You give her

no chance to fail on Your time.

When You hold her, there is no other

place she would rather be than in

Your arms.

It may have taken her a long to

figure this out, but she did and now

she is living her dream.

The fire within to serve is strong...

The fire within is hot...

The fire within will not die or fade

away as long as she has You.

My Philosophy

It is a thought or a sound that brought everyone to where they are in this world.

Part of the world or you do not exist at all.

Seen and not heard...

Heard of but not seen...

Everyone answers to someone...

At anytime this can all be taken away even if you never had anything to begin with.

The broken spirit of a woman, man or a child is useless.

Nothing is ever consistent, its always changing sometimes for the better or for the worse.

Even the people who you think really care are sitting at home or at work thinking

and saying things that are hurtful about you.

I would rather love than hate....

I would rather bring joy than pain....

Yes there are days where some rain must fall, but out of the rain comes refreshed

growth and beauty.

Every person you meet is six degrees of separation, meaning somehow, somewhere

someone knows him or her or someone is related to him or her.

Laugh loud as you can and as much as you can.

Cry when you are hurt and never keep it in, love is always waiting for you to trust

one more time over and over again.

When a person leaves your life another one enters.

Sometimes it is fun to go two steps forward and three steps back.

Even if you feel like there is nothing left to save of what you believe in or want,

don't ever give up.

When you give up, you give someone or something power to hurt you more.

So begins a new year, a new day, and a new future, let my philosophy show me

the way to a brighter horizon.

This life of mine is Yours to take and do with it what you wish.

This heart of mine aches to love only You, yet that day for You

to love back in return may never come.

My body burns with desire for Your touch, yet there is

something I may never know as well.

I only have one life to live and as life passes by waiting for You,

I will continue to wait.

The road that has led me to You has been hard and hurtful...

The road that has led me to You has shown me the evil that

men can do...

You are not like anyone else; You are a perfect creature in

body and in spirit.

You are my life and my heart and my soul to the ends of the

earth and back.

I could never love anyone else, so I will live my days alone

thinking of only You.

In my dreams I talk to You, and slowly You send me to

peaceful dreams.

As I lay in bed it feels as if You were right there holding me,

telling me You will always care.

What have I done to deserve someone who I can never be with?

Why have I been chosen to watch people hurt You over and

over again knowing there is nothing I can do?

Every day I miss You more and more and the feeling never

goes away.

Hurt me, abuse me, love me, hate me control me, do what

You want with me just never leave me.

Along The Horizon Is Something New

When the sun arose on the horizon

yesterday, there was something new...

A feeling that something bigger than

me was developing, for me or against

me.

Someone or something is breaking

down the wall that I have built to

protect myself.

There is a rebel yell building up, no

longer wanting to be careful, wanting

to risk it all, wanting to not have to

constantly walk on egg shells to make

people who really don't care happy.

The judging eye of society has

silenced my voice long enough.

I have walked across hot coals, I

have crossed a path of broken glass

and I have allowed love to drag my

heart through the mud more than

once.

I have always been the rescuer

never the rescued.

I always tell myself that the next

year will be better, that I will be

better.

I should not settle for anything less

than the best.

Where do you find yourself when

you let everything go and make

yourself vulnerable and available?

You find yourself in unknown areas

in shark infested waters.

The only thing that can keep you

afloat is yourself.

A true friend which is rare may

reach out a hand to help, but even

that comes with a price to pay later.

Nothing is for free in this world.

Is there really someone for everyone

out there?

I have experienced many things so

far, but love I have yet to know.

I have been slave, a secret, a

promise, a hope, a friend, a denial,

a devil, an angel, a night of

release, everything I have been,

but loved.

I am a mother, I am a recover from

addiction, I am a survivor of a

mother who never wanted me, I am

a sister, a godmother and a cleaner.

Then one day someone said "set

that inner beast free."

So as I sit here and ponder that

request, something new is developing

on the horizon.

I am ready for change are you?