Along The Horizon Is Something New

When the sun arose on the horizon

yesterday, there was something new...

A feeling that something bigger than

me was developing, for me or against

me.

Someone or something is breaking

down the wall that I have built to

protect myself.

There is a rebel yell building up, no

longer wanting to be careful, wanting

to risk it all, wanting to not have to

constantly walk on egg shells to make

people who really don't care happy.

The judging eye of society has

silenced my voice long enough.

I have walked across hot coals, I

have crossed a path of broken glass

and I have allowed love to drag my

heart through the mud more than

once.

I have always been the rescuer

never the rescued.

I always tell myself that the next

year will be better, that I will be

better.

I should not settle for anything less

than the best.

Where do you find yourself when

you let everything go and make

yourself vulnerable and available?

You find yourself in unknown areas

in shark infested waters.

The only thing that can keep you

afloat is yourself.

A true friend which is rare may

reach out a hand to help, but even

that comes with a price to pay later.

Nothing is for free in this world.

Is there really someone for everyone

out there?

I have experienced many things so

far, but love I have yet to know.

I have been slave, a secret, a

promise, a hope, a friend, a denial,

a devil, an angel, a night of

release, everything I have been,

but loved.

I am a mother, I am a recover from

addiction, I am a survivor of a

mother who never wanted me, I am

a sister, a godmother and a cleaner.

Then one day someone said "set

that inner beast free."

So as I sit here and ponder that

request, something new is developing

on the horizon.

I am ready for change are you?