I sit and I write this while feeling more than a little stressed over the fact that I can`t get my fingers (and mind) to work the way that it should when it comes to the purpose of typing speed and accuracy. I hate having to try and do all of these things when I know that I don`t even want to be a medical secretary anymore.  The whole thought of me sitting in front of a computer all day makes me nauseous and I know that no one is really listening.

Four other things that I would rather be doing other than typing:

Going through water torture

Sleeping 14 hour days and not waking up unless I needed to eat or go to the bathroom.

Watching hours and hours of bad wrestlers... especially the women.  Can`t stand those girls sometimes.

Drinking myself into a coma even though I don`t even drink.

Yep, I said it right.  I am only in this stupid course to see Shawn at Wrestlemania 27 in a year`s time.  If everything had worked out like I had planned, I would be working, have my own home, and be happy.  Know that all of these things don`t really cause someone to be happy but that`s what I want.  I need to be able to know that I have a goal and right now that isn`t even to finish this damned course. 

Stressed out and psychotic as always.

Jen