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THIS IS A WRESTLING WEBSITE!!! NOT A MY-SPACE!!!

Wrestling website? REALLY?!??! Thanks for the update! LOL.

Grab your bottle and relax, all is ok. Sometimes most of us post something personal. Learn to deal with it, or stop reading blogs.

Did the guy who left the first comment forget this is YOUR OWN PAGE! Duh, go to your own page and moan,imbicile! Anyways, enough chewing on rawhide!

Hey Lady!

Boy do I ever GET your blogs, I think I'm the New Hampshire version of you! You sound more like me, than me, wait, vice versa! Either way! I LOVE IT! I know what you mean completely!! That's why I like my dogs better than peoplel As long as I throw them a bone now and then, they are faithful friends, who I can vent to, lean on, and they will never throw me under the bus. Quite frankly, I'd prefer to clean St Bernard slobber than trust, and be kicked in the back of the head, when I turn around from the smile, and fake niceties that his human counterparts do as easily as tieing their shoes in the morning. At least I know the slobber is always going to be there, and it is what it is, I know what to expect from the relationship. You scratch behind my ears, and I'll be your forever, unconditional friend.

That's the problem with todays relations, CONDITIONS, what a person has to offer ME!! ME, ME,ME! What ever happened to friends to the end, through thick and through thin? I don't get it any more, Which is why, the $1500 price tag on the St Bernard Pup, a year ago ws a better investment in friendship than I can even say that building an inlaw apartment in the basement for my mom 3 years back was worth! She has since wiped me out of $17,000, straight out of one of our accounts, cleans my bar out of vodka everytime I buy a bottle , in case, I have company. I go to make martinis, and low and behold, the $44 bottle is bone dry, AGAIN, we rarely drrink. The diamond pendant my husband bought me for our 15th anniversary disappeared, while she was vacationing in Naples, Florida ( I went to wear it for the 1st time on New Years Eve, for the first time! 6 months after he had given it to me, and IT WAS GONE!) we searched the whole walk in ! Just gone. 2 days after she returned from her trip, it reappeared! Right in the same spot, I had originally put it. Gee, WTF! She, of course has no idea WHAT, I'm talking about. She lives in a beautiful inlaw, we built for her, with gas fireplace, jacuzzi tub, custom kitchen ....for free, she has no bills. I gave her $1000 last month, from a real estate transaction my husband and I had done, just to be nice, I'm always giving her the benefit of the doubt, just hoping....but 2 days later she tells me I OWE HER $20 from the tip to the delivery men from my new fridge last week, I had no cash, she did. I just gave her $1000 cash! But I still owe her the $20. Now she spends money like it's water, so I figured the $1000 would give her some cash to go out the 3X a week for dinner and martinis with her best friend. She calls me a day later, They are headed for Atlantic City for 3 days! ON ME!!!! Now she'll come home broke again, we pay all the bills for her lazy butt, and I better watch my stuff, and accounts really close again! What am I going to do? Throw my mother in jail? My sisters don't get it, she doesn't live in their basements! They just hear the horror stories. Which, so help me god, are all true! But their response is, You can't teach an old dog new tricks, mine is getting to be, NO BUT I CAN DROP HER OFF AT THE POUND! I can't believe a word she says, if her mouth is open, it's a lie. That is only a few of the things she has pulled, in the last year alone! There are so many more, several a month actually that I cry at ther drop of a hat, and don't know what I ever did to deserve this! I know why my Dad died 4 years ago, he couldn't take it anymore! And this is my MOTHER! Relations with so-called friends have never been much better. There is always an ulterior motive, and once I have fulfilled that motive, I'm history until they need something else I can provide that is. So I have one real friend, my husband, my kids of course, I have 2, one 23, the other, 9. They are the only 3 in the world I have come to count on. With everyone else, there are always conditions. Aside of the few online friends I have that don't want anything from me, except to chat! They, I treasure with all my heart. The relationship is what it is. It can be taken at face value, and I know they are always there when I hit that send button. They aren't waiting on the other end to see what it is, they can get from me. What they can take. Or what I can DO for them. Just talk to me, and be my friend. I've come to rely on these friendships as my favorites in a life time, as there are NO CONDITIONS.

It hurts to trust, and have that trust betrayed, over, and over. People are out for prsonal gain, no matter who it hurts, and they are willing to turn someone else into a train wreck, to get there! I've come to see gullibilty as my weakness. I think through the years I always wanted my mother to like me, and when I was doing something for her monetarily, she was nice to me. She actually acted like she liked me. So the more I gave, the higher the price tag for that friendhip became. As I get older myself, I find, I don't care whether she likes me anymore. I don't want to be taken , anymore, When you have to buy love/like, love is a whole differnt world, there is no love there. But thats sad, that I no longer care whether she likes me anymore. And I find tat's true with all my relations now. I don't careif someone likes me, or not. I prefer my dogs. My internet friends, my husband who I love with all my heart, and my kids, who walk all over me constantly, but in ways kids do, that parents expect. They also brighten my day with their laughter, and say thank you when I'm handing them the cash, not fooling me with fake love/like. They say I love you, even when my pockets are empty that day, as long as I can make a peanut butter sandwich! My mother on the other hand, won't give me the time of day, if she knows I have nothing that day to offer, that she can just take. Such as a gift card to the restaurant they are frequenting this month. She still lives in my home for free, but knows I'm not going to throw her lazy azz out, as my sisters would then never speak to me again. Although I don't see them offering a solution. or a room?! Not only does what my own mother put me through hurt my pockets, but it hurts my heart. People only care about themselves. It seems to be the way of the world now, and it will eventually lead to it's desrtuction.

Didn't mean to bring in a whole personal couple of problems, just really wanted you to know, I understand what you are saying completely, and my thoughts are with you.

My mother puts on a facade, a front, she tries to come off as the rich **** on the hill, and she really hasn't a pot to pizz in, except mine. It's sickening, I mean physically nauseating, when you are out with her in public, and hear thw way she speaks to others. She thinks having some comfort in life, which she uses mine, and my hard working husbands, to impress. means that she can talk down to people, she treats waitresses, and hotel employees like they are garbage, and she is Mary Queen of Scott. With all her Coach luggage, (that I bought) as they carry all , and she drapes her mink over the top, and heads to the casino. She will actually call after them, OH, BAG BOY!! I know what I have there! Like they are going to steal something. It's downright embarrassing. As I show up in my sweats, and t-shirt, apologizing in her wake as though I am her handmaiden or something. With my samsonite special from KOHLS.Such are the relationships in MY life.

One can't trust anymore, you can't assume someone is your friend because they just plain like you anymore. You have to assume there is something they want.

Sorry again! I just know how you feel, like you said, Love isn't about LOVE anymore.

Sorry also for not tuning in as of yet. I promise I will, I have had, this weekend, my 9 year olds basketball games. The same childs lightening project, complete with essay, and poster presentation, of which the class is supposed to come away with learning something about your topic, and saftey from your presentation. My oldest, and his girlfriend broke up for the 100th time this year, and he has called to talk, along with a friend who neede some advice from someone who cares, and that, I like to give my full attention to. The project, I can do while mixing the brownies, and feeding the dogs, although we may get a baked pan full of Mighty Dog, and they a bowl full of brownie batter, but such is life, it all goes to the same place, right?!?! I've had to cook, take care of the zoo, and have yet to make dinner tonight and it's 6:38pm! I don't know where the time goes. Seems the stuff I really want to do, is what gets put on the back burner. Maybe we can figure all that messenger stuff tomorrow or tuesday, I'll prob. need help! As I told ya, I'm a computer virgin! Just learning! I did get a bunch of photos up of my pets, yesterday at 5 am, my son, bet me I couldn't do it. I did! Go check out my pals, one of my cats is missing, I forgot his picture thought I had them all in there, haven't had time to go fix it yet. I feel bad, like I'm leaving him out! Give me a yell, over e-mail of course, and let me know your well. We'll get this accomplished, sometimes day to day life around here gets a little chaotic, and everyone is pulling a piece of me, in different directions.. Mondays are sometimes nice, as everyone disappears to work and school for a while, and I may have an hour inbetween pets, and cleaning to get to what I want to do. MAYBE!



Hugs, Karin (Phenom Girl)

PS>Taker looked totally HOT Friday night, what a DOLL! OUCH!!!!